I've been where he is. My walk with God began with a weird prayer,
- "God, I don't know if I even believe you exist, but you make all kinds of sense. So I'm in! I'll read the books, go to church and do all that stuff so I can find out who they say you are, but at some point I'm going to have to meet You in person. You have to show me Yourself. I'm betting my life here that you're real."
|The signs are there, though the journey |
getting to them can be downright uncomfortable.
Many Christians are horrified by people like the man above. How dare he doubt God? These religious absolutists are so busy being morally certain that they are right that many times, they never quite meet the God they talk so much about and their religion does them little if any good. There's a whole church in Kansas like that. They picket soldiers funerals and taunt gay people. They are so wrapped up in their own righteousness that they've never met the God of the Golden Rule.
I was an agnostic when I found God. I didn't change that much in the days after I was baptised. I was still skeptical. I was anything but morally certain. But I bought myself a pocket Bible and read it every day walking back and forth to classes at school.
And I did change. I became a better person and it was none of my doing. I didn't grit my teeth and try to be a good person. I just kept trying to find out who this God person really was and the more I got to know Him, the more it changed me.
My friend is on the right track though many Christians would find that hard to believe. There's some evidence that God actually prefers an honest skeptic to a close-minded religious bigot that thinks he can read God's mind.
In the end, it's not membership in the church that will save you. The church is just where you go to hang with people who believe like you do and want to work with you to do the kind of good deeds you will find yourself compelled to do when you spend time with God. Churches are like God's aid stations where the wounded soul may go to be patched up. But we don't fight the war on evil in the aid station. We get back out there and do some good.
It's a fascinating journey - trying to find God. I highly recommend it to anyone looking for what British author Douglas Addams called "The answer to the universal question about life, the universe and everything else." When you look for God, He will find you and in time, he will even answer the universal question for you. It make take several million years, but he gives you eternal life to boot.
How cool is that?